Hey, y’all. I wanted to come on here today, and chat about something that’s a little different than usual. I recently listened to the Podcast Good On Paper, and she featured one of my favorite bloggers, Amy from I Believe In Pink. Amy talked about a book that she read that completely changed her life called You Are A Badass. I’ve never really been one to open up to self-help books, but for some reason, I got the urge to read it. I listened to the audiobook in three days. This book completely changed how I look at life. I don’t want to dive into it too much, but it teaches you how to really believe in yourself, and stop the self-doubt that clouds our happiness. I highly recommend it! Since reading this book, I’ve begun to look at my life differently. I’m ready for this year to be the year I take back control of my life! Here’s how:
With the new year beginning, I’ve been reflecting on what has been one of the hardest and most challenging years of my life. I really want to use all of this growth as a springboard with all of the tools I’ve gained from You Are A Badass. One thing that has really clicked for me in just the last month is my health. Watching a lot of people in my life become ill this year has opened my eyes to just how much we take our bodies for granted. I want to not only feel great but treat my body like the freakin amazing powerhouse that it is. I have eaten poorly and gone up and down with diets my whole life. Reflecting back, I can honestly say it’s because eating healthy for me came from a place of trying to fix myself. I’ve finally come to the realization that that’s not what it’s about. I want to be healthy because my body deserves the nutrients to feel amazing. It has nothing to do with how I look. Last month, I read the book Body Love (I’m clearly getting real into the self-help section of Barnes & Noble lately LOL). Honestly, I think God really put these two books right in my lap at the same time for a reason. It’s all about eating to be healthy and to love yourself and to stop with the negative self-talk. I’m feeling so empowered to stop worrying about all of the outside pressure. I’m ready to start being who I am and feeling great. I’m going to start meal prepping, and I’ve made the smoothies from the book a few times to test them out. I will keep y’all posted with updates on my healthy eating journey!
The next thing on my self-empowerment journey is my faith. I’ve gone through some serious trials and tribulations with my relationship with God, but I’ve never questioned His love. I am so blessed for the life I’ve lived, and I know it is all because of Him. I’ve had a deep feeling of need to strengthen my relationship with God, and so every night I’ve been writing in a gratitude journal and saying a prayer. I wanted to start somewhere small and grow on it because I tend to overwhelm myself. I always expect myself to be the perfect Christian right from the get-go, and I always end up receding back into myself feeling like a failure. This time, I will allow myself the ability to have bumps in the road. I am allowing myself the ability to not be perfect, and that is one amazing feeling. I bought THIS prayer journal to start studying the Bible and to grow in my faith.
I will be the first to tell you that I haven’t always been proud of my blogging. When I first made my Instagram, I told no one close to me about it. I was so embarrassed by the fact that I wanted to share what I was wearing every day with people. I thought it was ridiculous. I’ve only had my website for a little over a year, but I’ve really been doing this on Instagram for years. I’ve always loved fashion and using that as a way to express myself. I feel like I truly shine when I’m wearing a great outfit, but the idea of what people would think of me for wanting to share that with the world terrified me. Now that I have been doing this openly for the last year, it’s my favorite job I could ever be blessed to do. Nothing I do on here ever feels like real work. I pinch myself every day and thank God that I am so blessed to have the means to do this. My goal is to one day do this full time. For the record, me saying that out loud is RARE AND HUGE. I’ve always been embarrassed to say that, but I’m telling you, this book is making me do crazy things. I’m not afraid to make affirmations about what I want, and who I am anymore. THIS IS MY GOAL AND I’M NOT ASHAMED OF IT ANYMORE! There. I said it.
Thank you for following me on this crazy journey. Thank you, Thank you, Thank you for reading. The fact that anyone cares about anything I have to say still shocks me on a daily basis. Y’all mean the world to me.